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Every morning I wake up and pain shoots through my ankles. I can barely walk. Small tasks such as sweeping the floor and washing my hair over the kitchen sink give me unbearable back pain. Forget about being late for work, getting to the door of my car and realizing I forgot something I need – and it’s all the way upstairs!  Running up the stairs to my room, and back to my car feels like running a thousand miles. And let’s not forget to mention the sharp, unexplained chest pains.  

Getting on the scale and seeing those digits stop at 229, shatters my world. I have always been a little chunky, but I must say I have never been so severely overweight. My doctor likes to call it “obese,” but I am not ready to face that word yet. At 25 years old, I still have many things to accomplish. I haven’t even settled down and started a family yet, which is one of my strongest desires; but am I really in the position to do that? What good would I be to my child if I can barely walk up 13 steps without gasping for air, and running for the Icy Hot? 

I want to dance again, but I don’t have the energy. After one minute of the song, I’m begging for strength, or contemplating ways to exit the stage without causing a commotion. If I truly walk in my destiny, it will call for public notice. I plan to be a journalist, author, playwright, screenwriter and actress. I can’t approach these tasks with the confidence and energy needed if I continue looking and feeling the way I do. 

Some people are happy being fat. Some people see it as the way God made them and to change it would mean they are conforming and not staying true to themselves. Let me tell you this; I am FAT, and God did NOT create me to be that way. My body is a temple intended to be used for greatness by God. I’m sure God would rather me lay off the donuts and watch my weight. It's time I start taking care of my body the way God expects me to.

I have my whole life ahead of me, and I’m tired of not being able or confident enough to live it to its fullest. I want something better for myself. I deserve a healthy body. I deserve a Diva Temple.